Start: 26 february 2024
End: 13 may 2024
Above all, I would like to sincerely thank my beloved Lord, Father and Master Sriman Narayana and Sri Narasimha Deva for bringing this gift into the world. Undoubtedly, a True Miracle... And to express my eternal gratitude to the Holy Mother and to each of Your Sons, the Holy Angels, who have supported me with so much love, protection, inner strength and care... Om Narayanaya! Om Narayanaya!It's so difficult to put into words this unique experience... So much feeling and gratitude for such an opportunity... thank you my Lord God for everything, Your Mercy is endless... Your Goodness and Your Love are so great, so pure, so beautiful... Your Power and Your Force are unimaginable, Oh Father.... I am so grateful to You for all of this... To have been reborn for You is everything, everything, everything I needed, my Father... Without this, there would be no chance in my journey... I wish from the bottom of my heart that everyone could touch this Blessing, this Magic, this endless Joy... Living this Great Adventure…*I will begin the testimony by portraying a glimpse of the Fruit of the Spiritual Rebirth that I am now experiencing (5 days after the end of this journey); and then I will continue with an overview of the whole process:A New Life (after the Spiritual Rebirth): Today, a few days after the Rebirth, I feel more and more gratitude in my heart for everything I've experienced. The feeling I have is: as if my body is no longer the same; it's literally as if I'm a new person, a new being; I feel more expanded and very light inside - as if I felt my body as a Temple itself, like a sacred body that I need to concentrate on not "dirtying"; because it's pure, it's light and it's worthy of great care and respect; and my mind is filled with Gratitude, Peace, Joy and Love in some moments, an endless beauty... that's how I've been feeling at the moment, as if everything were new, light and pure - Sacred... And the past seems like it was a dream, even the days during the rebirth seem far away... Gratitude and Love have been growing; but at the same time, an enormous force is trying to pull me towards the "old", the "evil" - mainly the mind with its tendencies and habits; and the strong temptations. So I see that, in order to honour what I have received and not destroy it all, my work and surrender will have to be - like the blessings that have been flowing - always increasing! I can't give space for the evil to infiltrate again; because that's what it's trying to do in many, many forms... Anyway, I have no words... just deep gratitude for literally living a "New Life", in a new body (full of energy and healthy, even though it's skinny after the rebirth) and in a new mind; far from all the burdens I carried for so many years and had no idea how heavy they were. And every day, all I want more than anything is to bring this unimaginable blessing to others, to the world. I realise, even more so now after Rebirth, that without this opportunity there would be no chance (but no way!) to touch this most beautiful path towards God... May you all experience this glorious process, Om Narayan, Narayan!The Opportunity I received is more than Sacred... nothing I can say will be able to reveal the Experience of this sublime Beauty in these 77 Days. And there is no way that I can repay all that I have experienced and received during this rebirth... What I can try to do, with all my efforts, with all my body and soul! with my life... is to run towards God and honour all that I have promised Him, because that was my promise. And not only because of my promised word, but also because of the clear vision (experienced during the process) that there is only the journey towards God, or the eternal self-deception pervaded by endless pain and suffering at the hands of evil entities - what I believed all my life to be the "normal"... Because it was through this living experience that I was able to touch for the first time something different from this "normal life"... something Divine... That's when I was able, by Divine Grace, to feel free of this enormous burden; which is the weight of sins and access by evil entities - entities that I had previously only "supposed what they could be", and that I'd heard about - but merely ideas, nothing real, nothing present... entities that I had never previously realised how terrible, sad and painful their influence is - because I was so corrupted (and, look, believing that I was an exemplary person)… and it was only during the process, with a lot of assistance, sacrifice, fasting, focus and prayer that they became more "perceptible". Before, they were as if inexistent, almost completely camouflaged - but the weight and influence had always been there, I just didn't have the "eyes to see". And it was during the process, due to the pressure they were under, that everything became more explicit and clear. And so began a long battle to break these powerful destructive bonds, all sin, all evil... and, at the same time, the dawn of the Divine Blessing... the Eternal Grace of the presence of the Hands of God.40 Days (first phase): These were intense days - from the first day to the last, without exception. An intensity greater than any intensity I had ever experienced at other times in my life. In this first stage, I was called upon to sacrifice a lot, to surrender and to have the courage to remove all the Evil that dwelled here; like a long dark night, but radiant with the twinkling of the stars and the magnificent moonlight - which appeared whenever help became necessary... the Hands of God... Initially, for the first two days, I couldn't get into the process, and my Great Ally was Fasting - it brought all the ingredients I needed to bring intensity to my process. For me, without fasting, repentance and attunement to the process would hardly have come so fast. I'm very grateful for the Blessing of Fasting - the mind suffered a little bit (due to my psychological fragility), the body felt a little (but no hunger! There's so much energy that we receive constantly, there's no idea, believe me!, the Divine Assistance behind the whole process is so great: it's Abundant, Supportive, it doesn't let you fall, it gives you exactly what you need, and at every moment: of course, by Surrender). And with the severing of the malignant ties and deliverance from all the evil that this phase brought me, it became more clear how dark it was here inside; how much I was carrying and enduring a burden, an endless evil... Unaware of the extent of the sins, the offences, these evil ties, of this terrible corruption... which, deep down, deprived me of everything... of everything, from what I could experience and what I believe in my heart, which magnifies the soul and makes life worth living... for all this proved to be a huge barrier that kept me far, far away... but very far away from God... and which kept me miserable for so many years... without even imagining how serious and disrespectful it was to live a life in such moulds. And it was only when I saw the gradual release from this darkness with my own eyes that I actually realised all this - every day lighter (of course, by overcoming the obstacles that appeared at every step and with the refulgence of the mysterious blessings of the Spiritual Rebirth). Before that, just speculation... And the Big Key was to tune myself with the Guidance of my Master Sriman Narayana; trusting, surrendering, trusting and surrendering... Deep down, there were no complexities, what was asked of me was: simply to surrender... Everything that "arose as something Alive (internally)" in my process throughout the day, I’d bring it to Him... And every point that He brought to me - every detail that I would never have realised on my own and that was really important (not just at that moment, but also in this new moment that I'm living now after Spiritual Rebirth) - was the essential point, simple as that... All Direction was (as it still remains) in His Guidance. Gratitude for so much, Oh Lord Narayana…(*I believe that some relevant points to share are: 1- contact with the "world" during the process - contact with cities, people, family members, worldly affairs, in short, everything that involves the "world" and that can somehow take away from the exclusive focus during rebirth - was a significant obstacle for me. Because, at many moments, I disconnected from the process; and it was only with a lot of struggle and blessing that I returned to where I was before. 2- Similarly to the huge obstacle of Gluttony; it was just a matter of eating a bit too much that I immediately lost the connection. One of the most difficult moments I experienced was during a "fall" after eating a bit too much at a meal during the (40 Days)... one needs to be very, very conscious with food; because it makes All, All, All the difference. 3- The focus required for Spiritual Rebirth is literally of "body and soul"! Otherwise, it wouldn't be possible; and it wouldn't make much sense either... To give an idea, even in dreams we couldn't relax, because everything is used to try to destroy the process and thus ruin the real chance of each person - after all, it is about the beginning of a Pristine Journey leading to the end of all slavery... towards Freedom, towards Eternity!)30 Days (second phase): After the first phase (40 Days), the Moonlight becomes more and more intense and the Sun rises into the Horizon. For me it happened very quickly - as soon as we moved from the (40 Days) to the Healing phase (30 Days), another Atmosphere revealed itself. Something Sweet, a Peace and a great Silence present: a Call to Contemplation and a deep Introspection... And, in this stage, what could not be accessed finally showed itself: a lot of pain and sadness here inside - the very core of this Deep and Sacred Healing Moment. The Angels of God became more and more present, or, at least in my eyes, they became more and more visible; because, I'm sure, they were there the whole time (since the beginning) - my deepest gratitude to each and every Angel of the Lord… All the suffering that I was allowed to touch and experience on my skin was enormous... But in no way was it something "negative"; because when I touched the depth of it inside me, a sublime Love and Assistance was present; so, deep down, it was more a cry of Liberation and Happiness... for if I was permitted to stay there longer in that experience of pain, sometimes (by blessing and nothing else), I felt and experienced that behind all the suffering, Everything was there... yes, Happiness.... the intimate and profound Happiness... the Love! Through the touch of this pain, the dissolving of many, many evils, the reconciliation with hearts, the Forgiveness, the embracing of something Divine and more and more Deeper inside me... in other words, an indescribable and inexhaustible Beauty...7 Days (last phase): And finally, the Huge Stop in Time, the Reconsecration of the Temple of the Body... Beautiful Moment, Unique Moment... A sublime Communion with the Angels of the Holy Mother and of the Lord... I just wanted to stay with Them, in the midst of Mother Nature... It's a lot of strength, a lot of energy received at this moment from the Angels of the Earth, of Water, of the Light of the Sun, of the Air and All Others, almost unbelievable. All the strength we need and much more is provided; nothing, nothing lacks. There was no difficulty with hunger or any other need. But my intensity, dedication and concentration remained the same: seeking Communion with the Words of Jesus Christ in the Essene Gospel of Peace and the constant Communion with God and His Angels. The most fantastic moment of the day for me were the baths in the stream of the Temple of NarasimhaDeva, in the midst of nature... There was so great Rejoicing and Life inside me after the bath, something magical... But it was not all wonders... the internal communion with the Angel of Water through intestinal cleansing was a difficult process for me; because, despite putting a lot of intensity into it from the first day, the purification process was very intense and slow. On the very third day, I started cleansing several times - over and over again. On the last day, even after a lot of cleansing, a lot of sacrifice, the water was not completely purified at all; more and more impurities were coming out. I spent until the last second before the Holy Baptism (the closing of the Spiritual Rebirth) doing the sessions - it was literally the whole day just doing it. So, due to all the intensity experienced during the cleanings in this last day - which was extremely difficult for me – in some moments I weakened; and in the midst of this fragility, I was still able to feel a lot of pain inside me; I was able to see, once again, all the harm I had already inflicted on so many beings, and a strong aversion and sadness for it. And again in this phase (because this work of Forgiveness is more present during the 40 Days), a request for Forgiveness, so that I would never return to all of this again after Spiritual Rebirth. Because from what I have been able to perceive until now, and if I could say something of this, I would say that: huge and profound is the suffering of the world, enormous is our suffering, and so heavy is the burden of our lives; and all of this due to the profound ignorance of the Evil present in our lives, and because we are unaware of any other "possibility, reality" - the ignorance that there is indeed something Wonderful to live here, something Sacred, something Divine... So, at this moment, I talked with me, and treasured this in my heart: "May I at least, after this Pristine Opportunity, Honour this Chance... The Unique Chance that I had on my journey to be reborn for God... And after so many, but so many insights and revealing/magnifying experiences that I received in this moment closer to God, may I continue with all my Sincerity and Surrender, to become more and more worthy of coming closer to Him… For coming closer to God is all I want for myself... it's all I wish with all my heart for everyone... each one... May we realise Your Divine Work, Oh Lord. Again, my profound gratitude to You for everything, for everything... how deep is Your Love and Mercy, my Father? Always, always saving us... creating the means to save us... just loving... loving us unconditionally... and how to repay You, unless by prostrating before You, O beloved Lord? Om Namo Narayanaya! Om Namo NarasimhaDeva! O Lord of infinite Compassion! Praise be to You ever and Forever! Om (Amen)!
Start: 26 february 2024
End: 13 may 2024
The Spiritual Rebirth for me was a holistic and complete journey, where I revisited my whole being, inside and out, and came out completely renewed. As the name of the process suggests, it was a complete rebirth for me, and that's the least to say! You can find various testimonials online expressing similar transformations, but believe me, this has nothing to do with that. It's about completely reorienting your life, your personality, all your values and beliefs in God, in a way that you can't quite imagine at first. You are not the same human being after.I only knew that what I wanted was Love, God and Freedom, and that my life didn't fit in with that. That I had to take steps in that direction, or my life would be wasted. Then I discovered Sriman Narayana. He appeared in my life and offered me this, in the form of Spiritual Rebirth and what's to come.The Spiritual Rebirth process ended yesterday for me. I will describe how I feel. It's as if my old life has ended and a new one is beginning. Radically and completely, not just as a beautiful metaphor. That now, my whole being is turned towards God, towards attaining His Love and Freedom. 77 days may seem like a long spiritual process from the outside, but let me tell you that I feel as if it's been much longer since I started, since it's as if my whole life has been renewed, rediscovered.To get there, you have to go through a lot of very difficult stages. I must warn that this process is brutal at many points. Despite having a regular daily spiritual practice of several strict hours and a high level of self-discipline, I was really pushed to my limits. You really have to be ready for anything, to want with all your heart to surrender to God and reorient your life, otherwise it's not possible to complete it, or even begin it. Everything of value inevitably has a price, and that which has the greatest value has the greatest price (I'm obviously not talking about monetary value here).The first process of the 40-day Deep Cleansing is by far the most difficult. It involves visiting all the darker aspects of your life and the world you live in. It's a shattering discovery that's brought back into consciousness again and again, when all you'd like to do is forget about it, move on to something else, but to heal it, it has to be seen repeatedly. I saw so many things in myself and in society that I was able to see before, but only superficially, and the process brought everything out into the open. In practice, all aspects are difficult and push you to the limit, and you have to be ready to continue when you feel destroyed, because otherwise you won't be able to complete it. For example: lack of sleep, hunger, our various personal temptations all coming to the surface at the same time, our incessantly expressed negativity, the difficulty of spiritual practices. There's also a lot of beauty in this process, for example the chance to have so many things revealed to you that explain your life, to see the courage, the epic of fighting when you're at your wits' end to reach God, to feel that our efforts are a sincere and effective purification in the right directions, the beauty of mantras and the spiritual atmosphere, the blessings of the salt baths with Sriman Narayana, etc.The second process of the 30-day Regeneration was sweet and light for me, but this varies a lot from person to person from what I've seen. As soon as the process began, the dark atmosphere and its heaviness automatically left me and were replaced by this sweetness and love and light in the air. I felt so good, I've never felt so light in my life. I felt I had learned something I had never learned before: to love myself simply, unconditionally. The spiritual process and the mantras were so beautiful, and I could really feel the healing going on inside me. This feeling continued throughout the whole process, right up to the last 10 days, when I began to feel the difficulty of the process again, and the fasting began to feel heavy.Finally the last process of the 7-day Body Temple Reconsecration was more difficult for me than I thought. The 7-day fast didn't scare me, but as Sriman Narayana says, it has nothing in common with fasting other than not eating. It's a spiritual process. The difficulty I experienced is not comparable with what is described in the Essene Gospel of Peace, but I was pushed to my limits several times and every day was very difficult. Energy was really at almost 0, every movement had to be done very slowly, I was constantly dizzy and the periods of intestinal enemas were very tiring. The sunbaths, on the other hand, were invigorating and nourishing. The place for communion with angels as described in the Essene Gospel of Peace is truly ideal and heavenly. The bath built for communion with the angels of water is next to a small altar of Narasimha in a beautiful natural setting. The water is cold, depending on the season, but invigorating. It's truly enchanting. Finally, on the last day, the final baptism was an event that totally marked my life. I felt rebirthed at that moment like a small baby, truly like a second chance at a life that has real meaning this time, which is to reach God.I recommend this sacred spiritual process to all sincere seekers of Freedom, Truth or God who wish to dedicate their lives to this process and want to give themselves a chance to reach it.
Start: 26 february 2024
End: 13 may 2024
My participation in the spiritual rebirth process was undoubtedly one of the most beautiful experiences I've ever had in my life, a unique opportunity that I was able to experience here at the City of Angels Ashram. I had already been practising daily meditation for some time, but the process is something that took me much deeper into myself. The process is truly a blessing from God because it's something that brings you face to face with your deepest difficulties and fears, it gave me the chance to look at all my difficulties, pains and attachments, and work deeply and intensely to move beyond them. The most incredible thing is to be able to realise and see the support that exists at each moment from the beings of light, and from Sriman Narayana. In the first 40 days, I found it more difficult because I felt much more the connection with the demons and their interference, the agitation, the anxieties and temptations. What was also very difficult for me was the reduced amount of food, but with time and practice I got used to it, and many days I didn't eat and I felt really good. I felt the process as something alive, where each day was unique and special; and this is something for me that I was never really conscious of: about what was really alive and real in this life, and really transformative. For me, personal issues came up day after day and, as time went on, I began to realise many things: old sins that I didn't even know were here inside me, unresolved issues with people, hurts from my past, situations with family members, resentments... all of this came out so that I could look at things and repent for my past mistakes, ask for forgiveness and express what was held inside me as deep wounds. It was very beautiful and valuable for me to be able to reacquaint myself with some people from my past, whom I hadn't been in contact with for a long time; and as these situations were solved, I felt like an expansion and an internal opening, a lightness and a release of burdens that were holding me prisoner; and then I felt a sense of relief, as if I were now freer to move forward.I also had some very difficult moments where I gave in to the temptations of the demons in eating food, and then I felt that the process became harder, it was as if I was going backwards. I saw that these were also strategies of mine to sabotage myself and spoil my efforts, and I saw how committed I was to these behaviours and attitudes in doing evil to myself - something that I need to and will continue to work hard on within myself.At times I found myself very bad and discouraged, it seemed that there was no way out or strength to continue; and right after a while, after the meditations and prayers, I felt my strength renewing, my vibration rising and I felt the help and support of the beings of light to keep on going. The Salt Baths with Sriman Narayana during my process were also very special moments, because most part of the time they happened at moments that I was having a lot of difficulties to proceed. I felt a lot of difficulty with myself and difficulty in being sincere with myself and with my Process and with God, but after the baths I felt closer to God and with sincerity and honesty within myself - for me it was as if the process came alive again. I am deeply grateful for these experiences, which were very difficult for me, but also very beautiful in the end.It was very hard to see all the emptiness in my life and in my past, the weight of the wrong things I did, all the people I hurt and wounded because of my ignorance, to see the density of all this as barriers holding me back from growing spiritually. I realised that I had a heavy load of mistakes and sins in my past that I had no idea about; but feeling that pain was very good for me and I'm very grateful, because despite having made all those mistakes in my past, God forgave me and freed me from my sins, I feel very happy and Grateful for that.In the 30 days, during the regeneration process and after the liberation and cuts with the demons, I could see a big difference in the practice of meditation and its deepening, a greater connection with God and subtle vibrations, and as if my whole physical and energetic body was being worked on and cared for by the Angels; but I also had a lot of difficulties because of all my fragility in always keeping myself at a higher vibration - it was always falling and getting up, falling and getting up.The last 7 days were very difficult for me also, but very beautiful and uplifting because it was a complete fasting process and I was already very thin; I felt very tired, weak and needed a lot of rest; i felt very fragile too, sometimes I didn't have the strength and it was very difficult to move around or walk - everything was done very slowly and always trying to remain in constant connection with God. But even with all these difficulties, nothing could be compared to the Beauty and Magic of all of this; sometimes I could only think: "you just have to keep on going and trust in God, keep your hope and faith". After bathing in the stream and meditating in the forest, I felt very good, as if I had been renewed. In this process there is a very beautiful and special connection with the angels, and also with the teachings of Jesus, which touched me deeply in my heart.I had many difficulties during my process. I can honestly say that I have never been through something so difficult in my life, a lot of pain and discomfort, but ultimately all this is nothing compared to the blessing I felt at the end; even feeling very frail, with a weak body and lacking strength, there are no words to describe the Beauty and Magic of everything I experienced. I know that I still have a long way to go and grow in my journey towards God, but I can say that the liberation from the demons was something that I perceived as if it were opening doors for us to walk towards God. Before, it seemed that spiritual practices and even feeling God were very difficult... sometimes it seemed to me that it would be impossible to realise God in this life because of so much interference from the demons that I felt; even so, I never lost faith that one day things would get better... and I just kept on trying. There were many thoughts and difficulties, not that it's easy now, it's still difficult for me, but now it's as if a weight has been removed from me and I can feel that it is possible to realise and reach God in this life.I wish from the bottom of my heart that so many beings who are dedicated to a sincere search for God or feel this need in their hearts can benefit from this great opportunity, because it is something unique and incomparable, something that is absolutely priceless. I deeply express my gratitude to my Spiritual Master Sriman Narayana, to our Divine Mother and to all the Angels and Beings of Light who took part in this process, helping and supporting everyone involved. It was a very difficult experience for me, but in the end I feel very grateful for the challenging times and for all that I have been through, thank you very much God, thank you very much God! Namaskar and Greetings to all!!!
Start: 26 february 2024
End: 13 may 2024
OM Narayan Narayan! OM, I hail God, The Supreme, The Creator!Peace be with you!
COURAGE! That's the word I start this report. A small word that I discovered during these 77 days, how BIG it is in action. I was hearing louder and louder a scream inside me saying: “that's right, courage, keep on going because that's enough for me, imprisoned as I am…”. Perhaps it was the voice of my heart, my soul, I don't know. But it was something really true, very intimate and sincere!
There were many discoveries and learnings. And this appreciation I've had has only come from what I've experienced most intensely, REALLY, yes with capital letters, so there's no doubt about it. And I'm telling you all, with all the certainty I have now! Yes, there were moments of so much grace, lightness and smiles that appeared spontaneously, as I had never felt before... But as it's a serious work, willing or not, the day-to-day was more about challenges. And I wonder how it could be without having a prepared and proper environment, like the one I'm in right now: an Ashram; and especially when you don't have Real Help around, like a Spiritual Guide, a Master, a Guru, a God-Realized Being, (whatever you want to call it). How could this work really happen? Sorry, I don't see how...In a normal life, I think it would even be dangerous, because I'd either be burnt alive or I'd certainly be in a psychiatric hospital at this point... (laughs)
For me to be able to stand firm, to not lose heart or give up, was certainly because I had the contacts and all the help received from God the Guru/Master - Sriman Narayana. His constant presence, day after day, sometimes more than once a day, even late at night and into the early hours of the morning, and all His involvement, especially His presence in the salt baths... Oh, Lord! What a blessing!
Even when I didn't seek Him out, my mind always resisting and saying: "you don't need to speak about this, or to do what He's saying and asking, etc...", Sri Narayana would still come to me and somehow make me say what was happening to me (even though He already knew); until over the days I stopped obeying my "mind that lies" and started speaking every day, uninterruptedly with Him. Or, Narayana just kept coming to see me, because even when I thought I had nothing to say, I always had, or at least I needed to hear - about some apparently "normal" experience. And in those moments when I almost lost myself in the tensions of the process, incredibly, here came Sriman Narayana and all was needed was a glance, a phrase for my resolve, strength and spirit be restored. Undoubtedly, something very beautiful happened together with Him and God: Trust and Faith! It's an incredible and unimaginable opportunity! Only then did I realise how alive, beautiful and wonderful this work of Spiritual Rebirth really is!
I started the 40 days involving myself a lot with the material that Sriman Narayana had prepared (Prayer, Mantras, videos, Conversations (Satsangas) with S.Narayana, etc). I'd like to emphasise the importance of this, because it really helps with discipline; and strictly following the Guidelines is something that makes it easier to understand what is happening in the experiences that take place.
The 40 days began and, right from the 2nd day, I noticed that the tone of my voice changed at times during the prayers and chanting of the Mantras. Something involuntary, but I realised it wasn't a "good" voice. I took this to S.Narayana. And then this voice began to come out more clearly and to disturb the prayers and chanting. I realised that I became irritated, starting with a strong irritation and then in an instant I would lose my mind, screaming to stop, because I didn't like Mantras and so on. All the senses were really lost. Yes, it was confirmed, they were demons... and so this phase unfolded. Days and days, expelling the numerous demons that dominated that body. They didn't like the process of Spiritual Rebirth at all, and even more so in this first stage. Then they started appearing in "me", almost directly, to disturb me and the others who were also in the process. When I was "possessed", I was told that some of the demons that showed themselves through this body were very angry, furious, aggressive and sad too. But the predominance was Anger, Hatred, Wrath... I realised that there are demons of all kinds!
I remember the day, when I was being taken to my first Salt Bath, that I stopped walking and started screaming at Sri Narayana. From that point on, some things I remember, others I don't... I know that I needed to be sheltered and my hand taken, so that "I" or the demon wouldn't run away - there was resistance in me, not wanting to go with Sri Narayana.
The demons have no pity for the body they take. I heard from Sri Narayana: "You know, snakes wait to strike, while ferocious dogs with more violent instincts, like pit bulls, attack, bite, without waiting, without choosing, without forgiveness. These are the demons that are showing themselves in you. I confess that I was surprised and very sad to hear this... and then Narayana corrected me: "Don't get involved in that sadness, because that's also one of their foods (of the demons)"... So my endeavour was to recover straight away. As they say: "I felt in my skin" - something that Narayana had told me previously. Several moments they tried to hurt this body and twice they succeeded, I felt the pain in my head from hitting a door and they made me punch myself... But Sri Narayana's attention and care became more present than the presence of these shadow beings. By being close to me, sometimes for hours, assisting with possible possession, or when I was already overpowered, He protected me a lot.
Realising that I had been involved in so many experiences that attracted demons who "literally" took over this body was something that surprised me, because I had many beliefs about demons and I confess that I even doubted their existence. I was taught in a so-called "normal life" that demons were more for horror films; and to begin to realise that personality patterns and habits of behaviour that generate sins, offences against God by causing suffering to others, as well as to us, are the "gateways" (words I heard from Sri Narayana), was something that really touched me and made me reflect a lot... Because of all the experiences I've had in my material life, I've sought treatment with therapies and psychologists, even psychiatrists and then to the famous "black stripes medication", which I refused to take immediately... I didn't know what was happening to me, but something told me that I didn't need those drugs (today, perhaps, I'll realise better that only by numbing oneself can such suffering be alleviated...). And yes, I also relied on the more optimistic people I had around, who said: “Just ask for forgiveness; just give or buy a present for yourself; just give some attention and everything will be solved; just take a trip; and so on and so forth...” and thus, without any idea, I allowed the “demon-thing” to remain hidden and already well established to gain power, increase in numbers and simply consume my mind, body and spirit... I didn't know anything about what was happening to me, nor, as I said, did I believe that demons existed in me, but I began to see all the help I sought as palliative or totally unsuccessful... And I began to realize: "there's something wrong with all this and with me"... From the very religion I had, I couldn't imagine “having” demons... From time to time (let it be said with sincerity), I prayed to God, went to parishes, cults, even fasted, because that made me be with God - holy innocence!!! I even knew of religions that held “dispossession ceremonies”, but I didn't need that... I didn't fully believe in it... In fact, it's a phase of so much discovery and learning!
I gradually realized that I would have to learn how to live day by day, because I started creating expectations. Then I saw and really felt the LIFE of this process of Spiritual Rebirth (by the way, the beautiful name of this work is not coincidence). And then I began wanting more and more and working on all the resistances in me that were contrary to this, in order to expel all the evil I was experiencing in myself. And so it was! A lot of expulsion of demons and each work, yes, very intense, painful, sometimes even lacking the strength to say “gratitude”. But the next moment was totally different. And there were the days, sometimes, when as soon as I'd finished a salt bath, for example, I'd notice an immediate lightness in my mind and body and the gratitude would be pronounced (laughs) wholeheartedly to my Blessed Master, God – smiling, in a deep relief. But my awareness also increased a little bit and, with a sharper sensitivity, I knew that I still had “a lot” to release and get out in those 40 days that were passing through. Having seen Sriman Narayana's videos and having learnt a lot from the teachings of Yoga, came to me in the midst of sensitivity to do a fast – in the beginning "fear". In the face of everything that I was going through and that was consuming my strength and energy, and I was already on a reduced diet because of what the process was guiding me to do, so the "mind" decided to go for 3 days... laughs, on the second day I decided to go against it and stay longer and then in prayer at the Temple, more guidance came: "stay more days fasting". At that point I was calm and had no doubts or fears about extending the fast. All I wanted and asked God to help me with, was for my body to endure it... And, so, it went for 14 days at the first time; and almost at the end of the 40 days, much more in peace with the importance of fasting, which also helped a lot to expel the demons, I decided to speak to Sri Narayana because it came to me to fast again. And another seven days followed... On the last day of the 40 days, I was well aware of all the weight that was on "my shoulders" and on my body and what had been lifted. And I knew that it was only a preparation for the next stage of the Spiritual Rebirth process. Even so, there was a state of total emotion, grace and gratitude in me, for God, Sri Narasimha Deva and especially Sriman Narayana and his constant presence, for all the help I had.
And so begins the Second phase of the Process and its 30 days! Once again, I realised how important it was for me to keep the discipline by accessing the support materials; Prayers, Mantras, Videos, Meetings with Sri Narayana (Satsangas) and even Rest (when the body asks for it). That's what best prepared me for the day-to-day of this period!
And Sri Narayana advised me right from the start: "Keep the same focus you had before, because it will be necessary, the work will be just as intense as it was before…". And when I heard that, the cherished "beliefs" went away again - in my ignorance or innocence I thought: "now it will be easier". Yes, there wasn't something as "dominant" to be seen, felt and worked on as the expulsion of demons, but there was a great challenge for me, which was to work on Forgiveness, so that the Healing and Treatment that this phase requires could take place! Remember that I'm just sharing my experience here, so this is something personal.
Yes, how many difficulties I had until I understood what to "do" to work on forgiveness - especially for myself. There was a lot of emotional, psychological and physical discomfort also. Many difficulties... Once again, I found myself in the midst of discoveries and learnings! As for the demons? In the sense of possession, there weren't any, nor were there any fasts, especially since I was advised to eat a little bit again (living food).However, with the emotional patterns going into low vibration, the mood swings were constant and I already knew: I had to take this to S.Narayana, or, He would realise and come to meet me. And in this case, the Satsangas (Conversations with the Master/Guru, drinking from His Wisdom and Compassion) increased. And yes, the unwelcome (by the demons) Salt Baths, which continued during this stage, were a great help! Once again, I found myself facing my weaknesses, this time more emotional, and I realised why. I was savouring the "bad fruits" of past actions. From the sadness I had or carried, there were sins, offences that were compensated for by aggressiveness. And the personality being distorted to the maximum, leading me to actions, habits, thoughts – bad and heavy - towards others and then returning to me - and thus maintaining the "cycle" (as well said by S.Narayana). And this closed cycle would lead me back to the same sadness, or rather, an increasingly intense sadness. And, yes, there was still the interference of demons, as if they were outside, very close, just waiting to attack or enter the body again. S.Narayana explains: "sadness, anger, arrogance, superiority, fears, etc., lead to a very close identification with demons and they attract them, and their 'return' to the body is very quick". Once again I listened, shivered and said: "Please, I don't want any more connections with those beings...". But I was realising that the invitation at that stage was then an effort, an even greater focus on my part towards the challenges I was perceiving with myself... Sri Narayana, God, was still on "readiness", but the challenges were saying: “Now it's up to you! Get up and get out of these patterns...” and it was revealed to me; "if you're in difficulties, it's because you want to stay in them..." I reflected... Yes, I remembered my life again, "asking for help" and no matter how much I received, after the days of "storms", I would come back and continue in the same conditions, without changing anything (or almost anything) in habits, actions because of the personality. I asked for a lot of help so that every effort on my part could be made in this phase to work on Forgiveness, Healing and Treatment; or to try to start a deeper work on this. This was undoubtedly a very challenging period for me, from the start to the end! And I can say that it was much more difficult than the first one. The personality is tricky, stubborn, and it was only in the last few days of actually completing the 30-day process that I felt calmer and the smile appeared... Once again, I'm a little bit more aware of the work I need to do on myself, in this so-called life, in order to continue in a spiritual work for God and, therefore, in purer action! And only by continuing the work that I can cleanse and purify me promptly. But it's up to me to do my part (as far as that goes!). "Self-surveillance" and not wanting to get involved with negative personality patterns (the dual side that fragments and distorts), “surrendering thoughts, actions, immediately to God" is what I heard a lot, but a lot from Sri Narayana - with a smile on His face, inviting me to keep up the same effort, FOCUS, to only go "forward". Another blessing received from this Beloved Being of Light! And so much gratitude and willingness to continue - my heart was filled with it!
And the third and final phase of the Spiritual Rebirth, 7 days, began with me hearing the comment from people close to me: "It'll be easy for you to fast now, you've been fasting for so long" and once again I saw my mind agreeing, but I perhaps gained a little "good sense" and immediately said to myself: "I'm not going to fall into this"; so I replied: “Let's see how it goes”. That no longer means anything to me, even if it seems like it, so I won't raise expectations... And I remembered S.Narayana's words to me: "It's a phase as intense as was the others, and for each person in a different way..." All the attention to what S.Narayana indicates in videos (support) for this phase was once again my initial help.
This is a very beautiful period in which we count on the Communion with the Angels of the Earthly Mother and the Heavenly Father. That's why the recommendation of fresh air, flowing water, etc... And again, I'm grateful to be here in this Ashram and to have a Sacred Place and a rich Nature in these natural resources. I know that it is a place "surrounded" by great assistance "in Light" - that I can't even imagine what really is... Everything here at the Ashram is ready (laughs) to help and shelter, embrace…
For me, the intensity came on or began to increase from the 3rd day onwards. There were a lot of physical pains that intensified, tiredness, lack of energy, etc. But I had all the help I needed... and as incredible as it seems, when I was talking to Sri Narayana about something that had happened, suddenly he called me to the blessed salt bath. I thought to myself, "Will I survive?" (laughs) and I even asked Narayana: "Will I be all right in the bath or after it?". And in the holy wisdom and patience of a true Master, I was told: "What do you still have to lose? Have you forgotten who is in command, God? And I'm here" - I was overcome with emotion! It was as if I saw the "waters of this Love of God" washing over me even before I started the salt bath... And finally, another recovery took place... And yes, I survived... and I'm still writing in order not to generate suspicion... (laughs). It was a short period, although it seemed like long days... I was asked for a lot of prayer and Communion. I tried with all my heart to fulfil this request, out of respect and reverence to Mother Nature or Mother Earth, God and His Angels… It was difficult: walking, talking, but I didn't run away from the discipline and day by day, even on the most difficult days, there I was... I began to see that I was being cared for and the relief came and, of course, when the time came, those discomforts would end... Cleansing the intestines (Ah! Intestines!) was my greatest challenge until the final moments of the 7th day! So much stuff literally encrusted... Lord! And talking to Sri Narayana and He explaining it to me... The training here for me was Patience and Trust! On the last day there were so many intestinal cleansings that if a doctor reads this account he might be horrified... I think even I would be... it's going against everything that science prescribes... Once again, in this process, I also saw the importance of having a Guru, my Master close by. And Sri Narayana, never failing, came to meet me almost at the end of the day - and, here, I am talking about the 7th day (the end of the Spiritual Rebirth). At that moment I was crying a lot... I couldn't even see a hint of the total cleansing of the intestines to finish the process. And I could hear His words empowering me: "For me, the day is until midnight. So get out of those registers and cries and get on with it..." All I knew was that I had to insist, so I followed what I heard and carried on, crying no more... When I was called, a short time later, for the water baptism in the Forest Stream here at the Ashram, it was already evening and I was on my last cleansing... and I saw the cleanliness... I was so confused at that moment that I couldn't even appreciate what I was seeing (laughs). I thought: for me, every last moment is a test of faith! And so I went for my Baptism of Initiation!In the midst of the starry sky, the noble breeze and a very pleasant water (it was warmer than I expected), thus, I surrendered myself to the Father and Mother, to God!And in this scenario, Sriman Narayana immersed this body in the stream and withdrew it with all the conditions of protection and affection that He had offered me since the beginning of the 77 days. His eyes shining like the stars, His smile full of sweetness and respect, that was the end of my period of Spiritual Rebirth!
And I was remembering how much I owed and owe in gratitude to God, by whatever Name He presents Himself to me, for the opportunity He has given me in this process and work of Spiritual Rebirth!
Yes, it's an opportunity given by God, Sri Narasimha Deva, to everyone who wants and even asks for an opportunity to turn to God for the removal of sins and healing from so much suffering, be it from the grossest to the subtlest aspects of the body (physical, energetic, mental, emotional, spiritual).And for those who doubt if it is possible, because they "have this or that" that they see or believe to be a barrier, the person writing here is 55 years old in body and has had a life which has been very frail in all aspects of the body.
This is an opportunity that only God can provide! And it only happens through "people" on this plane of existence, firstly, who "know themselves and know who God is" and also who have gone through this same process or experience. And now they just continue on this plane, contributing to humanity. Their Dharma (mission) is to serve God exclusively, as God, and they can guide everyone assertively to work towards Purity and thus also to God!
And I'd like to share with all the people who might be thinking, "All is well now" (laughs), what I was able to hear from Narayana the very next day: "A little bit more consciousness is achieved, because understanding sometimes takes longer to come. But know that you're now entering a New Life, and all your attention and focus is still very necessary, because any slip-up will put you back there again in the same condition, or sometimes worse than before. In order to reach God, the focus must be exclusively on yourself and on Him from now on. Stillness and isolation - turning inwards, every fraction of a second, in whatever you're doing." I thought: "The work continues, in a new condition, no doubt, but it's only the beginning..."
I close this statement by greeting you as I was taught by Jesus and Sriman Narayana.From my part, gratitude and greetings of Love to you all!
Peace be with you!OM Narayan Narayan!
Start: 26 february 2024
End: 13 may 2024
Certainly the most intense and difficult process I've been through in the shortest time. It was 77 days of Reconsecration of the Temple of Spirit and Body, lived intensely. I took deep breaths, because it wasn't possible to just let time pass, there was no way to be distracted. One day at a time, one moment at a time. It wasn't easy, not at all. A lot of tiredness, a lot of work, a lot of attention, as much focus as I could muster. Yes, it's very tiring, no doubt, but it's not for less! Eliminating all the sins of this and other lives in such a short space of time! But I imagine that the hardest work was done by God and His Angels to look after me (laughs). It was a whole process of great learning, learning mainly about myself and a little bit about my surroundings.
I've always been a person of normal standards. I got good grades at school, I was obedient, I didn't have many difficulties finding a job, interacting with people, I was healthy, I did what I liked, I had a good financial situation, I travelled, I led a peaceful life (whatever that may mean). Over the years, life became a little more difficult, there were some experiences that I considered heavy, the end of a romantic relationship accompanied by physical violence, for example. But I imagined it was like that, after all, life as an adult isn't like life as a child. But everything still seemed right, I never suspected that I was also "guided" by entities that weren't so good. I had never given much importance to demons, I thought they were something from the movies, I could even believe that they existed, but as something distant, present only in the past or in specific environments/situations, very far from my reality.
From the age of 22 or 23 (I'm now 27) I began to practise spirituality and meditation more intensely. Before that, I had experienced spiritism, esotericism, philosophy and shamanism. Until then, I believed that there was an astral world, good spirits, bad spirits, neutral spirits, without ever really reflecting on the term "demon", I even thought that it could be something that the Church created to scare people and was actually just our "defects". Perhaps the closest I ever came into contact with the subject was when a friend mentioned about the subject of implants in a quick conversation.
Regarding my formal meditation practices, I always faced very difficult obstacles, mainly sleep and mental slumber. When I started meditating more seriously, it was common for me to sit down to meditate and "not knowing where I went". On retreats with 10 hours of meditation a day, I would sleep for many of those hours or simply "switch off" as soon as I closed my eyes, without even having time to think about practising the technique. I clearly remember a one-day meditation retreat where we sat for many hours to meditate (I'm not sure if it was 10am here, but it was almost that) and I slept through every session, even though I wasn't sleepy at all. I could do everything recommended, rest well, eat little, take a cold shower, staying cold, but nothing really worked. And I thought it strange, because during the hours outside of formal practice there was no tiredness at all. I never understood it, I thought there was something wrong with me, but there was nothing I could do but persist, keep trying, in the hope that one day I would overcome this obstacle. In the process of Spiritual Rebirth it became very clear that this was all demonic interference! I can't say specifically whether it was implants, direct interference or both, but that's what it was. During the process, the sleep in the formal practices intensified, as I'll tell you later, and then ceased (at least in this way).
In the process of Spiritual Rebirth I realised how real demons are and how present they are in people and in our surroundings. They were very present in me (but in a very different way from what the films represent, each one will see in their own process) and they largely guided my life. It's incredible how miraculous they are, I could see part of the design they drew for me from when I was very young, a child, until I got to where I am now. They are very patient, perceptive, they don't rest for a second. There are many types of demons and I was "led", as it were, mainly by a specific type, that of promiscuity, which came as a surprise to me because I always thought I was very "holy", I always put myself in this role. Now I realise how wrong I was, but it's all part of the illusion and the game. For me, it was not open promiscuity, given the environment I was in, all of this was normal. I couldn't have been more wrong. During the 40 days of Deep Purification, there was a lot of struggle to remove the negative entities.
A lot of struggle and a lot of Mantras (which are strongly present throughout the process). The Mantras are very strong! Over time I discovered (I still have a lot to understand) that Mantras are our armour, our weapons! I discovered this "in the hard way": I once went two days without chanting specific Mantras, and the next thing I knew, many of the demons had returned! Mantras unveil, they take care. By reading the meaning of Mantras, I also understand a little of their importance. The more we can chant the Mantras with "Life", making them vibrate in our chests, the better. Don't hide from the Mantras. Another way to realise how important the Mantras are is to see my resistance to them: as soon as I start chanting the Mantras in formal practice, sleep, mental slumber and random thoughts just appear. I might not think about food during the day, for example, but come Mantra time, I can't stop thinking about food, all to divert my attention from the Mantras. And it's not just the demons who wanted to divert me from the Mantras, it's my part that's been corrupted too! It's me and it was them. With them it's much more difficult, the obstacles are much bigger, in my case there was a kind of sleep of even "sleeping standing up", moving around, etc. When they left, so did all that sleep, the obstacles started to become smaller - mainly mental dispersion.. Nowadays I can chant the Mantras in my formal meditation practices sitting on the floor, something that was inconceivable with them - I would stand up, move around and still black out... even more sitting down, was a constant sleep.
I'm extremely different with and without these entities and implants, and that only became clear after I got rid of them! Before, I didn't know myself in any other way; for me, it was just being myself. My sensitivity began to become more and more accurate during the process, it became easier and easier to identify when there was something wrong, when there was something in me that wasn't me, I soon realised that I had a much lower capacity for reasoning, many more temptations that were difficult to control, more tiredness, intrusive thoughts, the energy was completely different. Everything changes. It's only through experience that you'll really understand all of this.
During the 40 days of Deep Purification, I fasted for many days, because the entities don't like fasting, and it was so intense that I had to intensify it even more! During the 30 days of Regeneration, they appeared again, once because of my rooted actions, and again because I didn't chant the Mantras. But this time there was no more fasting, but still salt baths! The salt baths weren't very pleasant at the time, I felt like running away. But in the end, it was a blessing: the people who enter and leave the bath are totally different people. The moments after these baths were the most special, after them I was able to talk to Sriman Narayana (who was the One who conducted the baths, gave us His blessing, looked after us together with Sri Narasimha Deva) with all the sincerity that I think is possible, I was light-hearted. Even talking about traumas or entities was light, there was sparkle in the eyes, I was able to expose things that I couldn't before.
At the City of Angels Ashram there is the Forest Temple (the heart), and whenever I went to say my prayers there, something would happen. One day, I had a very frustrating experience of not being able to expose what was needed, I spent hours with the Master, and nothing. I went to do my prayers in the forest and when I had finished, the Master appeared again, as if he had heard my prayers. With all His patience, we talked again until, at one point, I was able to say something that had been stuck somewhere, and it wasn't something that was easy to see and uncover, it was about a very ugly part of me. Looking at and revealing our dirty side is not an easy process, but it's what cleanses. Afterwards it was as if I had lifted a HUGE weight from my back, everything changed. I was very happy with my own self for being able to take a step forward, increasing the confidence in myself and in my process, I realised that I can achieve things that seemed impossible before. I realised that no one is good or bad and you have to accept things as they are. Sincerity and transparency are the basis for the process to progress, as well as bringing you closer to the Master. I remember feeling the gentle breeze of the wind and smiling after this event.
The 30 days of Regeneration were no easier than the previous one. Now without demons, I've seen what's left of my personality traits, what I need to correct, to work on myself (including so that they don't come back, but above all to move towards God!). As Jesus says in the Essene Gospel of Peace: don't sin again! But who says that's easy? There are habits of behaviour ingrained in me, and suddenly I'm going back to the way I used to act. These are things that are part of my personality, that I thought were normal and that I had no problem with. At first they're not so visible, sinning isn't just eating until you can't stand it anymore, having sex or drinking/using drugs, it goes far beyond that. Sinning starts in the little things, it's something you say, a gesture you make, or not even that! It's the energy you put into it. And when you don't focus on it, you don't see it. Another thing I'm learning: to see. A simple greeting can bring many things to light. I'm learning with Sriman Narayana and in the experience: every BREATH counts, every MOMENT counts, everything counts. Each detail has to be taken care of. And you can't serve two masters at the same time, you either serve God or the other master. Every second must be taken into account in order to serve only God.I'm learning that this attention, this rebuilding of the whole personality, takes time. It takes constant focus, looking at everything you do and how you do it, a lot of introspection, looking at my pains, sorrows, weaknesses, being in touch with myself, not externalising so as not to feed these sorrows, internalising to dissolve them (so that God can heal them). It takes patience and a lot of self-love (developing if you don't have it, it's there somewhere!). This starts with the 30-day Regeneration process, but goes much further, perhaps for years.The 7 days of Reconsecration of the Temple of the Body were also very difficult! Not because of the fasting, I didn't feel hungry at any point, but because of the process itself. The tiredness, the routine, the intestinal cleansings. I got sunburned, which made the hours in the sun and the hot baths less pleasurable (laughs). I still felt a strong connection with the Angel of the Sun, who warmed us with his love and care on these cold beginning of winter days. Bathing in the river was a delight; I used to lie down, put my head in the water and just listen to its sound and feel it running over my face, connecting in this way with the Angel of Water. I went into those days with my breath being very short, barely breathing, but I came out breathing deeply, thanks to my contact with the Angel of Air. I connected with the Angels, with the Earthly Mother and with the Heavenly Father as best I could, I felt their presence. The baptism took place on a warm evening and was very special and happy, conducted by Sriman Narayana and all his Love.
The devotional process was extremely important at all times. Without devotion to Sri Narasimha Deva, the Father, the Mother, His Angels, Jesus, Sriman Narayana, there would be no strength, no life, there would be nothing, there would be not even a reason to start or continue! The removal of all negative entities and all restructuring of personality is, for me, just to move on more lightly, quickly and wisely towards God. To Serve! To Love! To fulfil His Will in Joy! Even without knowing what it all means.
Yes, it was really hard, but the one who leaves the Spiritual Rebirth is one person and the one who enters is another. And now it's just a beginning, with a lot of struggle, a lot of love, a lot of focus, a lot of devotion, a lot of care to serve only the Lord God. From now on, every breath, every second counts. And it's curious that my perception is becoming more acute and I'm being able to see how my choices influence the way I'll be in only a few moments, as if I had more autonomy, free will and also responsibility in relation to my states of being (although I know I'm still a long way from true free will). I'm very happy for everything that has happened, for being the way I am now, more aware, confident, with real hope, knowing that it really is possible to walk somewhere and to realise it in practice.
Gratitude to Sri Narasimha Deva, God Father and Mother, His Angels, Sriman Narayana, Beings of Light, Jesus, all those who participated in the process with me, the entire Sangha of the Ashram City of Angels, everyone who participated in any way. May many more beings benefit from this blessing brought to the three worlds by Sri Narasimha Deva. May peace be with you.
Start: 24 february 2024
End: 13 may 2024
I was lost in life, totally surrendered to the worldly, with no hope of realising God in this incarnation, such was my carelessness with myself and my indulgence in worldliness. I searched for the Truth in my 55 years of life and when I found it I ran away with intense force because the challenges were enormous and I became frightened, I ran away and found a deep sadness and a lack of meaning in life, despite everything apparently being ‘normal’. I tried to drown my sadness with relationships, alcohol, work and other entertainment. But all this only led to more sadness. I couldn't see any light at the end of the tunnel and I was sure that this incarnation had been lost. So I went to a Carnival spiritual retreat this year (2024), where I discovered a Sacred Process brought by God to humanity: Spiritual Rebirth. The challenges to reach this Process were enormous, very difficult for me, as I had my worldly life all set up, children at college, wife, work, bills to pay, etc. How could I leave all these responsibilities behind during the 77-day Spiritual Rebirth period? Everyone at home was against it, with my sons crying, worries about the bills, but the certainty that I had to experience this new chance with all my being. It was immensely difficult for me to get to the Ashram and start my Rebirth, perhaps the hardest step in this new stage of my life.
I went focussed on giving my best, because I had left a lot behind and I was warned that it wouldn't be easy, because the world would call me back so strongly. I watched all the videos on Spiritual Rebirth and realised that there is a spiritual war going on, where forces opposed to God (the demons) have taken over all sectors of our world, distorting God's Law, influencing people, without them knowing, because the existence of demons has been purposefully forgotten over time... On the very second day, an unconscionable despair came over me and I decided to leave. I couldn't think clearly, all I could think about was what I'd left behind and I wanted desperately to go back to my usual life. At the same time as this despair, I knew that I had to listen to Narayana first and there. He advised me that everything would conspire to make me give up, that opposing forces would be at work and that I had to be strong in my intention to be Reborn to God or else I would go back to the very unhappy life I was leading. I was able to recover with a lot of sacrifice, I strengthened my focus on reaching God and I got through that first ordeal with Narayana's help.
Spiritual Rebirth is divided into three parts. The first part of 40 days is very intense and I realised why I couldn't maintain continuous and serious spiritual activities in the world: because of demonic actions, of demons. I confess that I thought they were legends, stories about religion, but I felt in my skin the action of these beings who are contrary to God. I learned that God created us Sacralised, protected by this sacralisation, but because of the sins I've committed in my life, this protection has broken down, giving demons the right to influence me and take over my life. Listing all the sins I had committed during my life was another huge challenge, because with inner sincerity and Narayana's help I began to realise that many actions that I considered virtuous actually had dark, demonic interests behind them. I cried a lot when I realised these nefarious actions were hidden behind good deeds, and I went deep, with a lot of effort, sometimes a lot of resistance and even without understanding, after each and every one of these sins, trying to understand their roots, their motives, their intentions, without sparing myself. It was very painful. I realised that all my life I had been led by demons, with my permission through my sins and my free will - because demons influence me, but I'm the one who makes the decision. And to break with these influences, the remedies were: sincere and deep regret for all sins, a lot of Mantras (demons hate sincere Mantras), a lot of sincere and deep prayers, a lot of fasting from food (which helped a lot, I even spent 31 days on water alone), a lot of salt baths and Narayana's ever-present assistance. On the other hand, the demonic actions to hinder my progress were also intense: lots of lustful dreams, dreams that I was giving up on the process, dreams about people who had ‘nothing to do with me’, financial difficulties at home bringing me worries that diverted my focus, missing home, my children and I even had a divorce on the way with all the difficulties of this process. I knew, with Narayana's guidance, that all this was there to make me give up and go back to my usual life. It's been 55 years of living under the guidance of demons and I don't want to go back to that life whatsoever. Life with demons is a life of suffering, even under the guise of well-being.
Regarding the time of fasting, everyone has their own, you feel in your process whether you should do or not, God speaks to you during the prayers and Mantras. I started my fast with no end date. When I reached the 17th day of my fast, I decided to do it until the 20th day, when I received God's guidance during the Mantras to go until the 30th day. Until the 20th day I was relatively stuck in my process, I was “fine”... it was then that everything started to change, I began to notice the internal fire rising and the enormous discomfort that I thought was mine, but was actually from the demons that populated it. I remembered that everything would conspire to make me give up and I carried on. On the twenty-eighth day, I received another guidance from God during the Mantras to continue until the 32nd day... I confess I cried. I made the effort and after 31 and a half days I broke the fast... I ate two oranges, 1 tangerine and some salad and on that same day God asked for 10 more days.... These days were very intense, with a lot of vomiting (casting out demons), intense weakness.... On the eighth day I broke my fast. Before the fast, I was too dense, too fat and I needed something strong to break my resistances. Others have done much shorter fasts and come through the process very well. I cut several ties with people close to me, some of them very painful and difficult, but I realised that demonic influences were coming from there and it was necessary to cut the connection with these people. I learnt what it means to go deep inside myself, I forgave and asked for forgiveness sincerely. I spoke to God directly and got direct guidance. I realised how hypocritical I had been in life, how I had played the good guy in order to get things and I saw my need for affection explode with my low self-esteem, generating a vicious cycle that I couldn't break out of, because I was contaminated by demons. "There are only two Lords"... either you're with God or you're with demons. I was with demons and I didn't know it.
After each overcoming, I was certain that I was on the right path, because lightness gradually took over my being. I came to see things in a softer way, the goals in life became higher, I began to have a better relationship with myself and now I'm preparing to have a better relationship with others and with God.
At the end of the 40 days, I was very happy to be there. Most of my fears were not realised, the children were fine and I started the second stage, a little bit lighter than the first but still intense, which is the 30 days of regeneration of the subtle bodies. During this phase there was no complete fasting, only partial fasting with reduced food, I kept up the prayers, the cutting of ties, salt baths whenever necessary and the constant assistance of Narayana, 24 hours a day. The dreams were no longer intense and the desire to leave the process still came, but with less intensity. After the 30 days of regenerating the subtle bodies damaged by sins and demonic actions, I went through the last 7-day phase of resacralising the physical body, which is the mildest phase, with 7 days of complete fasting (only water) and intense contact with the Divine Mother, Mother Earth. I was so moved to realise that Our Earth is Our Divine Mother, Who is alive and loves us. It was Her who gave us the sacralised physical body when we were born, Her who gives us food, air, the warmth of the sun, water. She protects our sleep, our digestion... and much more. I took sunbaths every day, bathed in the stream every day, breathed the fresh air deeply, listened to songs selected for the moment and a lot of reflection and contemplation of nature. A very strong integration with Divine Mother. On the seventh day I was "baptised" into a new life. I was spiritually reborn, a new man, without sins, with new goals in God.
This was my experience of the Spiritual Rebirth; each person has their own unique journey, their own times of fasting, their own experiences during the process. Spiritual Rebirth is not the same for everyone, but the bonds are very similar. Our world is too bound up in forces that are contrary to God, due to sins and due to the actions of demons, and very few escape from this action. The demons' main focus of action is spiritual environments, operating intensely over the majority of people in general, to corrupt them and thus distort God's message. The main focus of Spiritual Rebirth is the repentance of sins; this enables God to act, severing the bonds with demons. Without deep regret, the connections with demons are not broken, such is the Law. I've seen some people give up on the process because of the discomfort it generates, as it goes against the will of the enemies, who will do anything to make you give up... you have to have focus and faith that you'll get through this phase, as I did.
I am very grateful to Narayana (God on Earth) for not giving up on me. My process and progress are still going on until I can reach Ascension and pure Devotion to God.